My Greatest Blessing ~ Being a Mommy!

This is a post I wrote for Mother’s Day in last year. I love reading this one (especially on days the little chix are a little crazy). It’s a great reminder of why I really do LOVE my life!

What’s your reminder?

Growing up I was never “The Mommy” when we were playing. I was always selling hand crafted pot holders and lemonade. I even ran a library once (my Mom still has the books with the cards for signing out and the little dewey decimal system stickers on the spines).

When I did play dolls it was really just to dress them up and fix there hair (and boss my little sister around). It was never a dream of mine to be a Mom, let alone a “life time dream”. For some reason, and I really don’t know why, but by the time I was a teenager I had decided that I wasn’t going to be able to have children. I mean I guess maybe it was because I had some issues with my “visitor” and that just slowly turned into the reason for me. I’m not totally sure.

However, my poor (and wonderfully patient on this) husband had wanted to start a family about a year into our marriage and I kept telling him, we will eventually. I was young, working and enjoying not having to worry about kids. Also, I knew that I would want to stay home with them (if I had them) and not do the day care thing – and I so wasn’t ready for all of that. But one day, after 8 years of marriage, a client came into my work and changed my mind.

He was going on and on about his girlfriends kids and how horrible they were (I know strange way to start to change my mind but it did). He kept talking about how easier it was before he had to deal with her kids and how he would be so much happier if he never had to deal with kids at all. How he would die alone and totally happy! Right there! Did you hear it? ALONE!!! That is what I took from that conversation – he would die alone with out kids!

Seriously? Who really wants that? Was that the direction my life was heading? Yes, I was married but we women know that we generally out live the fabulous man in our life. So YES with out kids chances are I would die alone.

Well, needless to say, we stopped preventing a pregnancy! Every one I knew managed to get pregnant right away. It seemed to me that all they had to do was think “I want a baby” and BAM they were pregnant! That is not how it happened for me. It took us over a year to see those two little lines! Now I know for those of you who have struggled or are struggling with your fertility that is not a long time at all. But to me it felt like an eternity. Not to mention I had already convinced myself, many many years ago, that I couldn’t have kids.

I had the most fantastic pregnancy you can imagine! No morning sickness and I could eat what ever I wanted (well that part ended up getting me in trouble after the baby was here though). I gave birth to our first perfectly beautiful baby girl 2 months before our 10th wedding anniversary! I instantly wanted more – 4 more to be exact! This was the greatest gift God had ever given me! How and why did I ever think I didn’t want this?

We now have two perfectly beautiful little girls and I am incredibly proud of my title “Homeschoolin Stay at Home Mommy”! It’s the best title I’ve ever had and the most important one! I wouldn’t change a thing – well maybe still add just two more blessing bundles to my resume!