My days are crazy. Filled with girls running and screaming (usually happy screams but occasionally – um… not so happy screams). Business (thankfully) is booming and I’m nearly ready to take it to the next level. Our school time is not exactly how I imagined it but it’s so close I can taste it! My husband is working at a company he can finally see a future with. Roo is in dance again finally and made the competition team. We’ve been here in Kentucky for a year now and it actually feels like home (I ran into someone I know at the grocery store the other day! I haven’t done that in 6 years!)
So why do I feel so off?
Shouldn’t I be happy and I don’t know… walking on clouds? I mean we are even talking about whether we should build or buy a house. Why am I still struggling then?
I think I’m still waiting for the floor to drop out. I’m still waiting for my husband to come home and announce, something has happened, he needs to start looking for another job.
If you notice my list of “things going in the right direction” above does not include my time with God. I have been so wrapped up in making sure my girls were getting into school this year, making life here feeling like home, and my business was go go going. I forgot about my private personal time with God! Sure my girls and I are studying the Bible and getting to know God in our school time. But what about me – my alone Mama time?
Actually no, let me change that. What about me, Meg daughter of the King time? My time to talk to God. My time to tell Him my hurts, struggles, joys, thanksgiving, and laughter. I need that time with my Dad.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.
This verse I have claimed as my Fighter Verse for the week (maybe longer). When I read it I can feel God showing me the {new} day. I can feel His arm around me saying “I got this so that you don’t have to. Just walk with ME!”
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
The more I seek Him the easier I am feeling. The more I am talking to Him and reading His notes to me the more I am feeling Him by my side.
Mamas, it is not enough to teach God’s Word to our children. We need to know it ourselves and walk hand-in-hand with Him each and every day!
How are you making sure you are spending quality time with just YOU and GOD?